Haven't blogged with words in a very long while I know. Haven't been using my brain much you see. Haha. Anyway, I was bathing and letting my thoughts run wild and I suddenly started thinking about the different perspectives on life.. Hence this blogpost.

However, it is indeed an inauspicious time to blog now cos the 9pm channel 8 show just started. I'm addicted to it!! Haha. Okay show just ended. So exciting! Haha.

Anyway I kinda lost my train of thought from before but I'll try to restring them as I go along la.

Was just thinking abt how my perspective of life changes every now and then. It changes along with the people I hang out with, the experiences I encounter and prolly with the mood I'm in at that very moment.

For example, one moment, I can feel that life's too short. I need to do things that I like, spend on whatever I like, eat everything I want and that saving up for a rainy day is just too conventional. Is conventional the word for it? It's like... I might just die tmr, a year later or what you know? (CHOY CHOY CHOY)

This is also known as the live life to the fullest motto I guess. I just do it a bit more recklessly and frivolously. Haha. As long as I'm happy right?

So when I'm having such thoughts, I wanna live like a nomad. Work and travel around the world and stay in the big cities I fancy. Learn abt their culture, learn their language, you know the works.

Not bad an idea right? Stay in new york, sydney, Seoul, Tokyo, Bangkok and London for 2 years each. Love the idea!

And then, there're some days I feel like I need to save up for a rainy day. Ok maybe not rainy day in my perspective. More like I need to save up for a big commitment. Like my own place. I've been wanting to move out but rental's mad expensive and buying a place of my own is definitely out of the question. I always say I wanna get married and depend on my rich husband but let's face it, I might never get married. Hurhur.

Ya it's times like these that I feel I should save money on unnecessary stuff so I can reap the benefits when I'm in my thirties. Just to digress, u know they say women pass their prime when they hit 24 or sth like that.. I actually think women are in their prime when they're in their thirties. Cos that's when ure financially independent and u kinda know what u want in life. Confidence. That's sexy man. Haha.

Okay back to the saving bit. It's not only about saving. It's about making the most when you're young and having the drive to succeed and earn lots of money. You know, like giving up fun for the first few years of your working youth and saving up all e money u earn. This would be the wei yu chou mo kind of life.

But I've poor concept of money, it's hard for me to save money. Oh wells. Am I making sense so far? I feel quite lazy to elaborate on my points actually. Heh.

Then sometimes, I feel I should be more normal. Like no need to super save or super spend. Just lead an average life and be happy you know? I mean, most people fall under this category and I've seen most of them happy with the way their lives worked out. Of cos this is not for those ambitious pple la. This would be the zhi zu chang le kinda life.

Other times I feel, why should I lead such a mundane life just because everyone else is like that? Aiyah. At this point in time, I'm really lazy to blog alr. Haha. But I'm pretty sure u get the gist of what I'm saying la right?

I wonder if you all have thoughts like these too? Do you know what you really want in life? I guess you'll never really know until you've tried it all. Afterall, the grass is always greener on the other side. As long as you're happy while you're in the process of finding out ur goals in life, you can't really say you've wasted time.

Not saying that times when ure not happy means uve wasted time. We all need to feel sad sometimes in order to appreciate the happy times. Need to lose sth we love dearly first before we learn how to treasure them next time. Another learning point: in life, always give second chances when ure not sure. U don't want to regret what uve never tried/what u might want to try all over again.

That being said, I guess what you want in life changes over time too. When ure young, u want excitement, challenges. When ure older, u want stability, predictability.

It also changes as u broaden ur horizons, get to know how different people in sg/from all walks of life/across the world lead their lives. How different their thinking is from us. That's prolly when new ideas stem from ur head and u see life from a fresh new perspective. Like hey! That sounds great. How come no one I know is doing it?

Okay I really don't wanna blog anymore. Haha. I am easily distracted and I have attention deficiency syndrome.

I haven't figured out what I really want in life at this point in my life but I'll prolly just go along with my mad head during this process of self discovery. I feel like i'm more inclined towards the live life to the fullest motto now tho, interspersed with short spurts of the live average life kind of motto. Rarely e Wei yu Chou mo motto. Haha.

My mad head wants to go play coin dozer now tho. :D toodles!